A WEEK WITH ME AND PREPPING FOR MY BABY SHOWER | VLOG | MOLLYMAE

Good morning guys.Welcome back to my channel.I hope you're all doing very well today on whatever day this vlog is greeting you.Today for me is a Monday morning and I've woken up to beautiful glorious sunshine.The garden looks heavenly and I've got a really nice somewhat daunting day planned today.I actually like, I feel like my whole life's been like an Adidas takeover at the minute but I actually, I just thought I'd bring you along with me this week and this is just what's happening on my Monday today so I've just got myself ready because I'm actually heading down to the Adidas HQ because I think what they're doing is some sort of like talk, but it's to the Adidas team, it's to the staff, and it's like a, not a seminar, I don't know what to call it, I don't want to call it the wrong thing, but all I know is that I'm sitting on a stage and being asked questions about the collab and just kind of like a general chit chat.

I feel like it's hopefully going to be quite flowy and hopefully quite informal because I haven't prepped for it.It was actually optional to be fair.Fran was like, you know, because I'm, I'm heavily pregnant now.She was like, anything now work wise, like you don't have to do, but obviously, I mean, it's the least I could do for Adidas considering how much they have done for me and the opportunity they gave me, sorry, my throat, and the opportunity they gave me.So I wanted to give back however I can basically.And this is really, No bother at all.

So I'll bring you guys on with me to that.I don't really have any updates for you really.I think this week I'm gonna maybe look to pack my hospital bag.Because they do say at 34 weeks you need to pack your hospital bag and that's me.Like I'm gonna be that in a few days.I'll probably just think about doing that and yeah just making it through another week, getting through these last few weeks.

Part of this day that I'm most concerned about is actually finding something to wear that's gonna fit me, that's gonna go with my new trainers, because I want to wear, obviously, wear my, my trainers.I don't know if I'm gonna wear the mattress or the lattes, and I don't know.need to think of an outfit because I've got some cute Addi bits here but I don't think they're going to go with my trainers.Okay don't mind the mess behind me but I'm pretty happy with this outfit that I've managed to pull together.The lighting is so bad because the windows behind me but I've managed to find a pair of trousers that fit me and are nice and loose around the leg and it's sit in a nice position with the bump because I just the whole way through the pregnancy I've just been wearing like super low -waisted stuff um but I've got on anyway these like shell addy pants my god the lighting is so bad with my latte superstars and then this brown zara bodysuit which is like a kind of like a power neck which i think is quite quite nice it's a little bit dressier The, when I tell you it's a bodysuit and the straps are holding on for dear life, like they're literally about to ping open any second.And then I've just got on this beige Frankie shot blazer, but I might change that.

I'm not too sure.I've got a lot of beige brown latte type looking jackets.

I got these cute little glasses.

So it'd look a little bit more sophisticated and like I should know what I'm talking about.So yeah.I'm pretty happy with that.I feel quite put together for once in this pregnancy.I'm gonna go and grab a quick bit of breakfast now.Hello.

Hello.Hello.Bye.Bye.What's her name?Roxy.

Roxy.Just a baby.

She likes you, babe.She likes you.She's posing.Are you posing?

I'm gonna drop Molly home, she's got a nice speech and talk, a bit of a Q &A with Adidas.

That's what the word was, Q &A, I was calling it a seminar, it's literally a Q &A.

Q &A?So I'm going to drop her home now, she's going to get on her wheels and then she's going to head there.I've got filming for At Home With The Furies.

Can I ask why you're speaking at least two octaves higher than your tone?

You're speaking in a high voice.Yeah, full clear breakdown I'm going to give them.I'm loving Twilight.Now I've seen clips on the internet obviously about the clips here and there but I've never actually seen any of them All the way through.

Are you team Edward or are you team Jacob?

Can I just say, I despise Jacob.Not as a person, he's probably a nice lad in real life.In terms of the film, I despise him.Like, take the hint mate, she's got a fella, not interested, do one.But instead, no.If I was Edward, I'd have snapped.

Another man here, he's happily right, he's married, he's married now.Got a kid on the way and you've got some other fella there, constantly prodding and trying to take your missus like, What are you doing mate?

That's what he says, I can take your mist if I want to.

No, it's irritating, I don't like that.

What about the scene where they're in the tent and Jacob had to cuddle up to her because she was going to freeze?What would you have done in that situation?It would have been cold.If you wanted to know where I'd be if I was Bella Swan, I'd be on the mountain still like this, frozen in time.Who likes our portaloo?I mean about the works on our house, like, it's no joke.

Like, we're having the amount of work done where the builders need a port -a -loo.I'm gonna summarise baby brain for you in a very, very short story.See that the time of something is 12 till 1 .45 and reading it as starts at 12 .45.That is literally what I've done this morning and I was texting Brad about something, and she was like, you have left, haven't you?Because obviously I was meant to be, like, driving, although she was probably thinking, why is she texting me so much?She's meant to be driving right now, and I was like, what do you mean?

Anyway.realized that I'd read the time completely wrong.I was literally sat around doing sweet FA, like, just, I didn't even know what I was doing, just messing around with my hair, putting some up, some down, which doesn't even look good.I'm so prompt, like, one thing about me is I've got to stop saying one thing about me is that, but I am prompt, like, I really, really hate being late.Sorry, I'm just going to be late.Please, I beg you.

It's one of those things where I have to awkwardly walk on and they're like, oh, she's turned up now.She's started to rock up.Any last words?I'm just a little bit nervous all of a sudden.There's 200 people in there and I haven't a clue what I'm saying.No, I'm joking.

I know what I'm saying.I just don't want my voice to go shaky because that's really embarrassing.

It won't, it won't.Okay.Okay, love you.

Good luck.Bye.

She's built a highly engaged social media presence.Leveraging her authenticity and a savvy audience understanding to become one of the UK's most powerful influencers.She's an entrepreneur, she owns her own fashion apparel business and cosmetic lines.I'm delighted to say that Molly May is here today to join us.She's very heavily pregnant.

This is something to be kind of said to my manager Fran, like, I think this could be great, like, I think we could really create something special here with Adidas.And first, I'm If I remember correctly, I think we reached out but at first we didn't have the right contact and they were like...maybe maybe not and then we found the right person within the brand and actually this really really works for us and I think that's as well like sometimes just having the right person to speak to.I think we were kind of sowing that seed for a while and found was like oh I'm not sure like I don't know if this is gonna happen.Here we are.It just felt totally natural and totally organic and for me an incredibly easy partnership because I wear the brand all the time anyway.

And that's as well why my audience bought into it so well because they knew how much I love the brand.It's the best I could do after what you guys have done for me.Thank you.Thanks so much.things for their child and then takes it for themselves like I got this for Bambi and TK Maxx because she saw it and absolutely fell in love with it and obviously now I've claimed it as my own because that is the cutest little thing I've ever seen it sticks up so hard why is it so high but I'm back from as you've seen I just ran myself a gorgeous bath I just had a really lovely afternoon kind of like an afternoon that reminded me of my first pregnancy because I've taken an early evening bath I've actually had my bath before, Bambi's had her bath, which is just hilarious.Tommy and Bambi are just watching a film on the bed and I thought, I'm just gonna make time, like I'm actually gonna take a bit of time for myself.

And I think, I'm definitely, definitely not complaining because I have had such an incredible pregnancy and I've loved every minute of it, I actually really have.I just think that pregnancy, when you have a child already, is so incredibly different to pregnancy first time around.Because when you are pregnant with no children, if you need to rest, you can rest.If you need to sleep, you can sleep.If you need to eat, you can eat.Your needs come first.

But when you are pregnant with a child or children, you moms out there that are doing it with multiple children and pregnant, I mean, it's wild because your needs really don't come first.And it's getting to a point now where it's, tricky enough to kind of do things for myself like getting up in the night to go to the toilet like sleeping is tricky now and you know even like catching my breath and all of that stuff and climbing the stairs but then when you add a toddler that wants to be carried up the stairs with you or you take them to the toilet every five minutes it's just like it's different it's definitely not bad if anything it's made it go quicker and taking my mind off it and like I say just made it just go a lot quicker um but it's definitely different so these like self -care afternoons those early baths those like mid -daytime baths they just obviously haven't happened this time around which is just the way it is.They're just chilling in the bedroom and I thought I'd just quickly do a little bit of skincare because my skin has definitely been up and down during this pregnancy but at the minute I think it's actually looking, I'd say probably one of the best it's looked through this pregnancy.I think it looks pretty clear.I spoke about these a few YouTube videos ago Introduced them into my routine and genuinely feel as though this is one of the most game -changing products that I think I've ever added to my routine in terms of you know, those visible results when you have a product that like Genuinely, you can see the benefit of using it That's one thing that I get quite frustrated with and I try and use skincare products I'm like, I just don't you know, you just don't know if it's working.But anyway, the Medicube poor pads Wow, there's actually a comment full of moisture like you can actually You can hear how, like, saturated in that product they are.

I actually like using the mild ones.I feel like these on my skin work best.Me and results -driven products, we're like that because...as you guys know, like to keep things quite samey in my routine with my makeup, with my skincare, so when I find something, introduce it, and it actually makes a visible difference, Because I was loving the paw pad so much I wanted to try a few more bits from MediCube.Saw a lot of girls on TikTok using the peptide serum.This is really great for dark spots or any like acne scarring.

This is also the first skincare product that I've tried that's infused with salmon PDRM.I've seen people talking about salmon infused skincare products for years and never jumped on the hype but As you can see, this serum just adds such a nice glow to the skin.Finally, moisturiser.I have been loving the Triple Collagen Cream also from Medicube.I've used quite a good bit of this already.As I always say to you guys, it's a very low -maintenance skincare girly.

When I'm returning to a product, I know it's good.I've always been quite lucky that my skin is not sensitive.I can kind of try different products.I mean, you can't really argue with Those results I do feel like that is giving glass skin if I do say so myself I've been super impressed with those many cute products.I'm really glad I tried These two because like I said, I fell in love with these and thought I think i'm gonna like some more things from this brand Which I have been so I will leave a link for those products down below It's the first time in ages that i've worked with a new brand and it takes a lot for me to Kind of build a relationship with the brand and trust a brand and really like put you guys onto the products I feel like the results were too good not to share a diffuser have that See you later.Gentle, gentle.

To you, Madone.To you.

Suddenly, the baker, he said, Sophie, open the door, and it was...And he said, it's... sunshine.

Or have I not just done the nursery drop -off in an inside -out pyjama top, wearing a full -blown pyjama set?Like, yes I did.I literally saw the mums in the car park and I thought, and they were all dressed with makeup and hair done and ready for the day, and I'm just here in my inside -out pyjamas, probably just on my whole boob.Yeah, I don't know how I did that.I think because, basically, my addiction to the showers and baths is so out of hand that I had a shower, so I put my pyjamas on.No, no.

I had a shower then I put my pyjamas on and then I was like actually no I want a bath as well so then I took my pyjamas off and then put these pyjamas back on after my bath but obviously cool story bro put them all inside out anyway guys you're gonna laugh right you're actually gonna laugh so it's like the day after I last spoke to you and basically I forgot to like catch you guys up on the fact that I've actually got a little mini baby shower brunch tomorrow and um Long story short with this with my baby shower baby thing I started planning a baby shower and I was gonna have it here at the house and I plan to do an outdoor cinema type teepee Friends come over and we have like a little like slumber party type thing which sounds really cringy But it's just very very me isn't it and I thought I actually think I'll be really happy doing that Also, I'm so sorry.It looks like I've literally rolled out of bed and that's because I pretty much have But I I was like, yeah, let's just look at your little teepees outdoor cinema type things We started planning it and I thought actually do I actually really want to do that?I thought like on the morning of my baby shower like picture how I'm gonna feel waking up Am I gonna feel excited or am I gonna be dreading it?I thought well you're gonna be dreading that because like you're gonna feel anxious because you're bringing like different friends together from different groups and And so I just and I just thought you know, it's just a lot so that I just swerve it basically so ends up swerving it but then I also Sorry, I've really got a bad one.but I also then was like, well, the mist might be my last baby.Like, I really want to do something to celebrate it.

Sorry, I just got so, I just got so embarrassed because there's so many builders out there.But basically, long story long, because when can I ever tell a story short?I said to Fran, like, don't suppose you fancy helping me kind of just set something up, just something small, So, I'm having a baby shower brunch tomorrow that Fran has organised for me, which I'm really looking forward to.I think it's going to be really cute.Half my friends think I don't know about it, and half my friends, like, everyone thinks I think it's a surprise, or that I don't know about it, but I do know about it.But the situation is, just get your words out Molly, the baby brain is literally baby raining so bad, I don't have anything to wear.

That's that.that is where I wanted to get to from this story is that I don't have anything to wear for this baby shower because I our new drop for maybe our summer drop it's Incredible it's dropping on Sunday, but because my size isn't everything in a minute Like I don't know whether I'm coming or going I don't know what sizes I'm wearing things Also, the dress code is jeans and a nice top and this maybe drop that's coming out on Sunday is quite dressy stuff Because it's like summer summer holiday.It's called endless day the drop and this is just chapter one so it's endless day chapter one coming on Sunday and I fear we may have peaked with this product.I say that every single time but It's so good.I sent a couple of my friends the lookbook last night for them to pick some bits.They were like, this is literally unreal.

And so I was really, really proud.I'm really, really proud of it.And I can't wait for you guys to see it.But I thought we could maybe try some bits on.I just don't want to turn up looking too dressy.And everyone else being jeans and trainers and me, if they turn up in a ball gown, that'd be really embarrassing.

I've got no jeans that fit me, so I can't even follow my own flipping dress code.And then I would like to get my nails done today at some point because I want my talons off.want these long nails gone.They are bugging me. I just want fresh short clean nails It's lovely having natural light in this dressing room.But also I spend half my time now.It's sunny just blinded by the Sun I just have the weirdest 20 minutes of my life.

First of all, I'm in the shower covered in soap because obviously I'm addicted to soap and bubbles and sponges so I'm literally like popped the bottom in soap and I'm about to rinse the soap off and literally the shower cut.Builders turned the water off, literally whilst I'm mid -shower covered.When I mean like I'm covered in soap, I mean like I'm basically just one big sud on one big soap bubble.Obviously I can't shout out to the builders like, hello, I'm in the shower, like so embarrassing.So I had to get out and pat the bubbles off of me with the towel.My skin is burning off.

Anyway, that was the first great thing that happened.Then, the security company's calling me like, just to ask a question, is the fire in your skip on purpose?Like, are you meant to be having a fire in your skip?I'm like, give me a second, hang up the phone to the security, run to my builder, Glenn.I was like, Glenn, there's a fire!And he was like, yeah, yeah, we've got it under control.

Basically, the full skip set on fire.So, honestly, What?Like, what's going on this morning?All blown fire in my skip.All I'm trying to do is just have a shower and just try and find an outfit for this baby brunch tomorrow, and instead I'm fireman Sam over here.Anyway, at least I'm clean.

Skin might be burning off me, but at least I'm clean.Right, I'm gonna try on a couple of these outfits, but I actually think I've just nailed my outfit in one, which I'm really happy about.I actually didn't forget about this set but I just didn't consider it because I thought it wouldn't be dressy enough but I've popped it on with a little pointed toe heel and I feel as though this is like the perfectvibe because the dress code is jeans and a nice top and I feel like this kind of gives the energy I just this set is so feminine and so cutesy because of the sleeve so the way we did the sleeve it's kind of like a little peplum -y frill there's a little bit more volume to it but then in the body it's really nice and take a hugging, obviously it would look very different if I didn't have a big bum.This could be actually nice, I feel really confident in it.I feel like it's very baby shower vibes, it's not too dressy.

Obviously I'm gonna have hair, I'm gonna get my makeup done but I'm just getting a blow -dry tomorrow.So not too, not too worried now because I think this could definitely be a good option.Comes in navy too.It's a navy version, which is so gorgeous.But I don't know if you guys can see, basically, the pointelle is actually little embroidered M's for the Maybe logo, which is just so, so special.I'm just, yeah, this product is, like I said, I think some of our best yet, maybe if not the best.

This was another option that I had, which is also dropping on Sunday.I actually, I'll insert some pictures here of when I wore this.for a Look Fantastic shoot a while ago, but I didn't want to share that it was maybe because it was like a good few weeks back.And I just, I don't like sharing things too soon.The only thing I'll say with this is I think it's gorgeous, but it's obviously like it's a holiday collection.It's a summer collection.

And obviously with the dress code being jeans and a nice top, I just feel if I rock up in this, I'm going to look a little bit dressy and also black.It's not really like spring baby shower vibes, but.I feel good in this set, I feel kind of hot, I feel like a hot mama.We did this set last year but we did it with this t -shirt which we are bringing back but we're just bringing it with a different few variations so you can alsoget this stunning kind of like kimono style top and it also comes with shorts in this like beautiful like sheer beachy fabric so that is another option.Let me know what you guys think but I just think it's a little bit too dressy.

It would look really cute with like a black bag but I just don't think it's very baby shower.I think this is a little bit more you know, dinner out with the boyfriend.Boyfriend, fiance, whatever the hell he is.Dinner out, night out, pregnant mum on the town, that kind of vibe.Don't have a top to show you guys what this would look like open.I mean, I'm just wearing my little nude bra.

Bra's basically the same as a top, so I'll just kind of, you can get the vibe, but this was another option I had, back by popular demand.This set was, we had this set last year, but we had it in this color with, I don't know if you guys remember, it had like a big, M on the pocket, but we're bringing it back this year with just a few changes.The branding is just slightly more discreet and we're bringing it back in another colorway as well, which is this gorgeous like sage green.I did think this could be one of my options as to walk around like a little cropped up underneath with the bump out.However, I, this is a size 12 in the bottoms and around the bump, I'm definitely more comfortable in a 14 at the minute.So, I do feel like this could be cute as well, I just haven't put a shoe with it but with a nice little pointy toe heel and this little yellow bag, I do feel like that could be really cute.

There was me thinking that I was decided and now this set's put a complete spanner in the works because the little buttery yellow bag with this set, this set's also coming on Sunday, it also comes in black, and look at the little plait detailing here how gorgeous is that so this is basically a move on and a play on our cruise fineness set that literally was probably our best performing set last year and you guys fell in love with it butthen we wanted to bring it back but basically due to the fabric and other complications we couldn't bring it back so we've done what we call a move on and a little nod to the set but we've developed it and I believe made it even better so it's in this kind of like pinstripey fabric now with added little details like the plait and the new buttons and stuff.And I feel like this could look so cute for tomorrow.Again, very jeans and a nice top vibe, but no jeans.

Okay, well at least I've got two options now.Well, more than two options.

Okay, next task of the day.Talons off.I'm over it.I flick between having short and long nails more than, like, it's my most indecisive thing, as you guys know.If you've been with me forever, then you'll know that I've, I've just always been a flicker with my nails.Quite literally a flicker.

I just, like, I'm over them now.I want fresh, clean, short nails, and I reckon I'll probably have them until baby gets here, to be honest, because, you know, the only thing that the long nails are good for are for doing Bambi's hair, because with those little elastics, they're really good to, like, hook Like, it is good with the long nails for doing hair, but anyway.I'm gonna nip to the nail shop, maybe grab myself a bit of solo lunch, because I'm ravenous, haven't had anything to eat yet, and I feel a lot more chilled now.I've potentially got a couple outfits prepped, but the girls do have a few things at the office for me that I'm gonna go pick up anyway, just in case I need them.Cool, sorry bro.No, I don't know where that's coming from.

Do you mind just popping this inside for me, love?Alright, love.Alright, love.

Love you.

Love you.Morning, guys.It's the next day, and it's shower day!I didn't do very well yesterday at closing off the movie there so I can actually see in the mirror whilst I do this.Building work every single day, I'm not gonna lie, I stood on a stone on the landing that was like accidentally brought in on someone's shoe I think, and I was like, that's it!You know when like the pain is so bad or something that you feel like a crazy rage, I was like, The building won't stop like I was just but technically funny enough We're only actually four weeks into an eight -week project and I'm already feeling like this.

So basically, it's not looking good for me.God bless Fran She's organized me this whole brunch and she's really really poorly.She's been being sick all night and She's just like so sick and she was like literally up till five this morning like being unwell She was like and bearing in mind like nothing will keep Fran away from something like this So like I know that she's seriously.I just know that she's serious seriously not well So she's not even gonna be able to come to the thing that she's literally organized for me Which I just feel so bad for her be there enjoying this brunch that she's organized and she's not even gonna be there So but listen nice casual baby shower Wow volume do you think that looks okay if I maybe spray it like that I just want it to look cash and not to like here's my blowout I just want it to look like I'm kind of oh this is just my hair every day you know all this how I rock up to things every day you know it's just my hair could definitely do with a refresh because as you can see like I've been using all kinds of different shampoos purple shampoos and it's definitely not done the color any favors I feel like my hair is about 85 different shades of blonde right now and some of it is slightly purple you guys are gonna think I'm being pathetic but I cannot explain to you how many builders literally just outside my door right now so I've got the worst stage fright oh I forgot to show you my nails as wellThese are my nails that I got done yesterday.So I just had them all cut off, feel a lot fresher for it.

And yeah, nice and short.I think I'll probably keep them short until the baby now.But I just want to show you, but I'm also really scared to talk because of stage fright.Imagine having stage fright in your own home, standard.

Baby brunch, baby shower, baby whatever the heck it is ready.

I feel like this fits the brief quite well.I feel a good amount of dressy, but picked my scent, which I think is an important choice because days like this, you just like, I feel like a scent associates with it.And I've gone for sun is up from memory because also I've got a mini bottle of it, which is going to fit perfectly in my bag.And also because it's such a summery day outside today, the sun is beaming and this just reminds me of summer.

baby take a leap of faith it's worth the wait

big jump she's really good at jumping joking oh that was really good go on do it again oh my gosh that was really really cool it's really really cool morning guys it's the day after the shower I've still got mascara on my face why have you still got mascara on?because I clearly didn't take my makeup off properly last night why didn't you take these off?it's okay They are outdoor shoes, so we shouldn't really be wearing them inside.

I'm wearing them in case.

Just in case?

Yeah, in case I get any dirt on my feet.

Nice.Put it there.

Yeah.

Scuba dive.

But I'm going to take them off when they're finished.OK.

Well, they'll be finished in about 100 years, the builders, so you'll be wearing your shoes for a long time.Musical cars here.Someone's always blocking someone in because of the builders.Take a shot.how many times I talk about the builders in my next few vlogs over the next couple months.So I know the last clip you saw was me with Bambi this morning, but now I'm on my way to pick her up from nursery.

That was before nursery.That noise is my mum's car on the gravel.And now we are driving to get her from nursery to take her for ice cream, because it's Friday, and baby shower day was yesterday.Had such a nice afternoon, but as you can see, barely vlogged anything.But also, was just in the moment, enjoying it with my friends.Like, some of my friends traveled from like, all the way down south and it was just such a nice, perfect little baby celebration.

It wasn't too much, it wasn't not enough, it was just perfect.And here's the old, um,Hersey, which I can't stop saying because there's fear and chintzy -er.The old Hersey.

What's an old Hersey?

A hussy is like a - Oh, hussy.Yeah, do you know what a hussy is?I know what a hussy is.What is it?It's like someone who's a bit promiscuous.Yeah, like an old whore.

Yes, that's me all over.You old Hersey.So I think I've got sciatica.No, I think basically I've got this trapped nerve thing in my back.And I think it's called sciatica.Sciatica is a pain that travels down the back of your legs.

Oh, no, I've not got that.No, I don't think it's sciatica.I think it's probably pregnancy related, darling.The last hour summarizes, I look how the last hour has been, basically.I also feel like my eye shape has changed.random one, I feel like my eye shape's changed in this pregnancy.

When I'm pregnant, I feel like my eyes go rounder, or more of the whites of my eyes show, or maybe it's the Botox wearing off, but the red cheeks are from, listen, it's not stress because, well, no, it is, but basically, I'm just, I'm getting annoyed at myself in motherhood because I just feel like my patients, What what patients what patients that's like how I feel which is I'm really irritating me because to be so honest I do struggle with my patients at the best of times like I don't know I think I've got quite a short fuse like I'm not like an angry person or anything and I don't get I Don't know.I just I think I don't I think when it comes to motherhood, you know when you know when you're like a very self -sufficient independent person you can get jobs done very quickly and it's I think that part of my personality is like, when it comes to motherhood is something I struggle with because you really can't, like, I don't know, you have to have a lot of patience.That's like the key thing in toddlerhood and just in parenthood, like it's just pure patience and pure like just being calm, letting them have their big feelings.You know, after nursery on a Friday, like it's been a long week, no nap at nursery, like it's going to be a big feelings moment.But I think I'm also experiencing big feelings.I feel super hormonal, very flustered.

And you know, and it's just, yeah, I don't know.I just feel like I let myself down as a mum a bit this afternoon because all my, like, friends are there with their kids and I don't know none of them are pregnant I do need to give myself a bit of grace but equally I don't know just like my other friend that just had a baby a few months ago I was with her a lot like that ice cream on a nursery Friday day and she would never get flustered the way I do so I don't know I'm just like you know when you just reallydon't know quite hard on myself with it But yeah, I know I'm literally made no sense.Anyway, I I'm gonna bring this book to a close.I've been in my dressing room for 95 % of this vlog So I do apologize, but I'm just making by me some pasta and then bath bed.My mom's here So she's watching her downstairs me, which is great And that's even more embarrassing because my mom was that ice cream tell me I wasn't even doing it by myself but I just My patience, I don't know I just I feel like I just can't like the small like the tantrums that I normally can handle I'm, just like I can't I can't I don't know.

Anyway, I love you guys if you made it to the end of this video I love you millions, and hopefully I will see you all in my next one.

Bye